Well this post is not what i was originally going to post about but hey.

I’ve come to realise in the past month that most people are pretty unpredictable.
You can think you know someone so well then they can just toally shock you.
Everything you thought about them is ripped up and showed that these thoughts about who they are couldn’t be further from the truth.

Friendships you’ve had for years can crumble at the slightest change in one of your lives.

It’s really sad.

But although totally upset about stuff which happened over the weekend today i’ve just felt really calm and peaceful. I guess everything really DOES happen for a reason and even though we are not always certain why these things happen and they confuse us they still work out for the better.

I mean maybe losing a good friend of mine was the proof i needed to see they really weren’t a good friend and really wouldn’t be helping me and my life go where i want it to.

If we could have all the people we want and for them to be the way we wanted life would be too weird.

We have to go through challenges to make us stronger and a better judge of character.

I’m now more prepared to stand up and analyse who people really are before letting them get so close that they can break my happiness in a n instance.

I just pray and hope that all this nonsense has stopped now like the still of today and that it will carry on no longer. I’ve shut the door and i’m not going to open it – just gotta trust it won’t be kicked down by them. I’m not crying any more tears for people who get off on kicking me down. When someone says sorry it should always be enough. Where are the forgiving hearts? That’s one thing people can’t criticise me for – when someone says sorry i accept their apology and move on. God says hate the sin but love the sinner – so i do.

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N i stay strong – thanks to God. ❤

Day 3

Lol i gave in today and spent loads of time on facebook…my personal statement is coming along though in a very badly written way…Hmm
Wish i could just write ti how it would sound good and like i really want to do what i’m applying for it’s WAY too ramble filled…!
Blah.

Day 2

Well…at this rate i will never return to facebook…!
LOL
I don’t see today being very productive as i have a banging headache and a really sore throat oh and i keep sneezing YUM…this is commonly known as a cold…!
So yeh i’m like being a whimp and just want to sleep.

I think i am going to read “The Color Purple” as my work for today as i need to for my coursework…!

Maybe do a little more on my personal statement… but the state it’s in at the moment just depresses me and so yeh! AHA.

Writing the ole blog early today because i think when i get home from work tonight i will just want to go to bed and so i won’t have any excuse to come on my laptop if i write this now 🙂

I’m proud of myself 😉 I’m not as addicted as you all think…Well maybe i just have a lot of determination? i don’t know haha!!

My coursework and Personal statement will be done eventually…then i’ll return to constant commenting and updating…

Over and out ❤

Day 1

Okay, Okay…Not using facebook through the day is pretty simple i mean i’m occupied with College and so it didn’t really effect me…
But tonight well it’s only just past 6 and i’m like bored…I have managed to sort of plan out my Personal Statement…i wish i could just write it and not think about it so much!!
I worry about doing it wrong, so wrong that it is just chucked out and i’m rejected…with only 4 options of where to go the pressure is immense…i just want to do this right so i’m given a chance.
I’ve read so much about Primary school teaching and other peoples personal statments that this shouldn’t be so difficult -.-
TOO STRESSED.
Must try and sort this out now… – bubye! ❤

Because today reminded me of you…

Today, all day – my mind was occupied with thoughts of her.

My “cousin” – not that i think of her as that.

She gave up that title when she decided to be a monster.

I wish i had known what i know now as i could have done more.

If i saw you now and you were forced to give me full truth i would just ask why?

WHY?

I just hope as time goes by that i will heal more and more. Emotional scars are the worst…especially when at first they don’t make sense but then suddenly things CLICKKKK. Bad lightbulb moment. Let the light go out.

I’m thankful that i have a God to make me stronger, wiser and better through my life experiences…I will make it through.